Only Forever: Lifetimes to Love with Scotty Cade

December 5, 2016

 

 

 

Master Captain Theodore Gourdin has always loved the ocean. But his devotion to maritime life left little possibility for a long-term relationship. After two failed marriages and numerous unsuccessful relationships, Theo gave up on finding the person who completed him and decided the sea was his soul mate. When offered the opportunity to captain the newly launched megayacht Eternity, Theo jumped at the chance. With Eternity’s maiden voyage looming, Theo focused all his energies on hiring his crew and readying his ship. The last thing he expected was to finally lose his heart in the process.

After twelve years at sea, First Officer Heath Rawlins was restless and in need of a change. A gay seaman’s life could be a lonely one, but to Heath the positives far outweighed the negatives. With excellent recommendations and an impressive résumé, he was quickly offered a position on the private megayacht Eternity. Heath’s heart skipped several beats when he finally met the ship’s captain. He was handsome and charming. And… familiar? Had they met somewhere before? Highly unlikely. But as smitten as Heath was with the gorgeous captain, everything inside him screamed, Abandon ship! Rough seas ahead!

 

Scotty Cade

Hi Kids,

Scotty Cade here again. First off I’d like to thank my wonderful publisher Dreamspinner Press for their never ending support and guidance over the last seven years and for always giving me the opportunity to hijack their blog allowing me to spend a little time with you. Their support along with yours means the world to me so thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

With all that said, today I’m here to chat about my latest novel which released about a week ago. It’s called “Only Forever” and focuses on the unexpected, unexplainable, but deeply strong connection between two men when they meet for the first time. Theo and Heath have been drawn to the sea for as long as they could remember, but neither really knew why. They have both spent their lives feeling like they’ve been looking for something that was always just out of reach. But when they are brought together their connection is to powerful and overwhelming to ignore. Although they fight it all the way, for many reasons, the pull is undeniable.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not pushing any agenda and I’m not sure I’m a complete believer in reincarnation, but I do believe that our time on earth is just a minute of our spiritual journey. I think along the way we meet people, connect with them, befriend them, love them and let them go, until our paths cross again. So that is the premise of the book, accepting and embracing something you can never really prove but know deep inside your heart, without a doubt, it’s your truth.

When I got the brainstorm for this book I sat down and started writing. No research, no outline, just me, Theo and Heath. But halfway through the book, it took on a life of its own, as my books usually do, and ventured off in a direction I had no idea was coming. That’s when I decided I needed to research the stuff Theo and Heath were experiencing. So I stopped writing just long enough to verify a few of my thoughts, but I got so involved in the subject matter I ended up spending countless hours perusing the internet about déjà vu, reincarnation and all sorts of similar topics.

Six hours in, I stumbled upon a site called “Whisper’s from the Soul” by Esther Bartkiw. Trust me when I tell you this site intrigued the hell out of me. Esther is a strong believe in reincarnation. On her sight she talks about what’s going on when you meet someone, have an instant connection and feel like you’ve know that person forever. She believes they are part of your “Soul Group” or “Soul Family.” According to Esther, these are people or groups of spirits or beings who reincarnate with us in various lifetimes and perhaps even in different realms to help us move forward in life, grow in consciousness and learn life lessons.

She goes on to say that she believes that while we are in the heavens waiting for our next incarnation into the physical, we make plans on what we want to experience and accomplish in our lifetime. We look to members of our Soul Group or Soul Family to help us achieve those goals. These members of your Soul Group may have popped up in your past lives as a lover, friend, sister or parent cherishing and caring for you. These spirits may have made an appearance as a nemesis, enemy or someone who deeply wounded you. This does not mean that the spirit does not like you or is bad. On the contrary, this spirit most likely loves you so much that they were willing to come to the planet and be a part of your life that causes you grief and anguish so that you can grow and accomplish what you plan.

Anyway, I could go on and on about this topic, but you get the drift. So when you read this book all I ask is that you keep an open mind and just allow the possibilities to resonate with you. And please don’t call it “instalove.” It may appear as such, but Heath and Theo have known each for many lifetimes. It a mere reconnection of lovers.

Oh. One more thing before I let you get to the excerpt. Let me ask you one question. Have you ever met someone for the first time, had a feeling that maybe you’ve met them before, or even felt like you’ve known them forever? If you’ve had an experience like I’ve mentioned above, tell me about in the form of a comment. If you do, you will be entered into a drawing to win any book from my backlist.

Enjoy!

Scotty

 

Only Forever by Scotty Cade

 

Excerpt:

Theo propped his elbows on the table and rested his chin in his hands. He stared at Heath quizzically. “Excuse me for asking, but have we met somewhere before? You seem so very familiar to me.”

“Oddly enough, I thought the same thing when I walked into the dining room and saw you sitting here. But I don’t see how. I think I would have remembered.”

“I guess so,” Theo said. “You probably just remind me of someone.”

“Same here,” Heath agreed.

The two men held each other’s gaze until Heath felt uncomfortable, cleared his throat, and turned away. When he turned back, the captain was still eyeing him closely.

“So tell me,” Heath said. “In your e-mail you mentioned you’d hired a first officer but alluded to the fact that he wasn’t a good fit. Can I ask what happened?”

“Certainly,” Theo said. “As I mentioned in my original email, it’s nothing I can put my finger on exactly. I’ve interviewed about a half dozen potential first officers, and they were all very qualified, but they were young, stiff, and eager to please. I don’t want someone blowing smoke up my ass. I want someone who has my back and will shoot straight with me. And I just didn’t feel he was the one.”

Oh my God! How many gay innuendos can a person make in one sentence? Young and stiff? Eager to please? Blowing smoke up your ass? Having your back? Shooting straight! This is gonna kill me. Look at the bright side, Heath. You might not get the job.

Heath folded his napkin and placed it in front of him. He rested both elbows on the table, linked his fingers, and leaned forward. “Well, sir—I mean, Theo. The way I see it—if you offer me the position, our relationship can go one of two ways. I can do everything you just mentioned and more”—and enjoy the hell out of it—“or I can be 100 percent honest with you and give you my opinion regarding any particular situation when it is solicited. It’s really up to you.”

A smile crept across Theo’s face. “I like you, Heath. You’re straightforward and to the point. I think we’ll get along just fine. By the way, what does the G stand for in your name, G. Heath Rawlins?”

Heat slowly crept up Heath’s face. “Are you sure you won’t laugh?”

“No promises,” Theo said, looking over the edge of his glass before he took a sip of water.

“Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

Theo eyed him warily.

“My first name is Gilligan.”

Theo choked on his water, and Heath thought he might spit a mouthful across the table. The captain wiped the water from his chin with his napkin, smiled, and locked eyes with Heath. “You’re shitting me, right? A sailor named Gilligan?”

“It’s a family name on my mother’s side,” Heath explained. “And while we’re on the subject, if I remember right, your middle initial is G.”

This time Theo squirmed. “It is.”

“And?” Heath asked.

Theo looked from side to side and then leaned in with mischief in his eyes. “Gil-li-ard,” he said softly.

“Your middle name is Gil-li-ard?” Heath asked rather loudly. “How do you spell that?”

Theo laughed and spelled out his middle name. “G-a-i-l-l-a-r-d.”

“When you spell it, it sounds like it should be pronounced Gail-lard. Guy-lard. Or maybe Gay-lard?”

“Welcome to the South, Gilligan,” Theo said. “My family’s originally from Charleston, South Carolina, and it was my mother’s maiden name.”

“Well, at least we have that much in common,” Heath said, now feeling even more comfortable teasing Theo.

“You’re from Charleston?” Theo asked.

“No. But both of our parents apparently blessed us with sucky names.”

Theo frowned. “Really? I happen to like mine.”

Heath’s smile faded. Oh shit. As usual I went too far.

But before Heath could backtrack, Theo burst into laughter. “Oh, who am I kidding? I despise it.”

“Oh thank God,” Heath said. “I thought I’d just ruined my chance at a new job before I even got it.”

“Nope. And for future reference, I don’t take myself that seriously.” Theo looked around for a waiter. “Hey! How about a drink?”

“To that I’ll say, ‘Yes, sir!’”

Once they had their drinks and ordered their dinner, the conversation flowed again.

“So I’ve already told you I’m originally from Charleston,” Theo said. “How about you?”

“Austin, Texas,” Heath replied.

“I’ve been there a couple of times, and I like Austin. A lot. Your family still there?”

“Unfortunately not.” Heath felt the usual tightening of his chest and tugging at his heart each time he had to tell the story about how he’d lost his family, but he pushed through it, as he always did, and explained his situation.

“I’m really sorry,” Theo said. “That couldn’t have been easy for you.”

Heath stared at a ship’s wheel hanging on the wall over Theo’s shoulder and mentally stepped back in time. “It sucked,” he finally said. “In the beginning I had horrible survivor’s guilt, you know? Like I wished the hell I had been home with them. I mean, I kept asking myself why I was spared.”

As the words left Heath’s mouth, they surprised the hell out of him. He hadn’t spoken to anyone, with the exception of a grief counselor at the maritime academy, about how he’d felt after losing his family. Not anyone in over twelve years. But here he was telling Theo all about it.

Theo seemed to hang on his words and appeared to be waiting for more when Heath decided enough was enough. He needed to wrap this up, and quick. “But it got easier, I guess.”

Maybe sensing that Heath was uncomfortable talking about his family, Theo reached over and laid his hand on top of Heath’s—a move that surprised the hell out of him. As soon as their flesh connected, Heath felt the same instant warmth running through his body he’d felt when they’d shaken hands earlier. This time the warmth was accompanied by a fleeting image that flashed through his mind’s eye. But before Heath could lock onto it, it was gone.

Theo’s thoughtful tone and sensitive demeanor told Heath the captain was not only good-looking, he was easy to talk to and seemed genuine and caring. He liked the man more and more with each passing minute.

“I guess we play the hand we’re dealt,” Heath said, trying to stay in the moment.

“You’re right,” Theo agreed, slowly withdrawing his hand.

As soon as Theo’s touch was gone, Heath instantly wanted it back. What was the draw? He sure as hell didn’t know, but he was quickly realizing he was playing with fire. He needed to get a grip on this infatuation or he was going to ruin his chances of getting this job.

“Well,” Heath continued, “if there was anything positive that came from losing my family, it’s the fact that their deaths made me throw myself into my education and career full force. And twelve years later, here I am.”

Theo nodded. “If my calculations are correct, you joined your first ship right after you graduated.”

“Just days,” Heath admitted. “I needed the distraction, or I probably would have lost my mind. Or even worse, killed myself.”

Theo gave him a knowing glance.

“Hey, look,” Heath said. “I’m sorry, man. I have no idea why I went into all this detail. I don’t talk about this stuff.”

“Maybe you needed to,” Theo said. “And I’m glad you felt comfortable enough with me to share a little of your story.”

Theo hesitated and then spoke. “I know this sounds lame, but the more we talk, I just can’t shake the feeling that we’ve met somewhere before.”

 

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Scotty Cade left Corporate America and twenty-five years of Marketing and Public Relations behind to buy an Inn & Restaurant on the island of Martha’s Vineyard with his partner of over twenty years. He started writing stories as soon as he could read, but just five years ago for publication.  When not at the Inn, you can find him on the bow of his boat writing gay romance novels with his Shetland sheepdog Mavis at his side.  Being from the south and a lover of commitment and fidelity, all of his characters find their way to long healthy relationships, however long it takes them to get there.  He believes that in the end, the boy should always get the boy.

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5 Responses to “Only Forever: Lifetimes to Love with Scotty Cade”

  1. Becca says:

    I haven’t read it yet but can’t wait to do so! Love the excerpt!

  2. H.B. says:

    I’ve had that deja vu feeling before with a friend, who is no longer a friend. We got a long great when we met about a decade ago and it continued for quite a few years. She was like a sister from another mother.

  3. Scotty Cade says:

    Thanks Becca. I sure hope you enjoy it.

  4. Scotty Cade says:

    Oh H.B. So sorry it didn’t work out. Sometimes our soul mates come back into our lives for specific reason and then they move on again. XO

  5. Trix says:

    I’ve felt an instant rapport with everyone from my best friend to performers I’ve talked with after shows, but I can’t say it’s been an “I’ve known you forever” feeling. It’s more like a “where have you been all my life” feeling!

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